« Wed.12.20.2000 »
2:21 pm EST 16°F (-9°C) in Ann Arbor
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This site's hosting-provider change became official last night, as most of the world's DNS servers updated their records at midnight GMT (7:00 pm Eastern time here in the States). Unless you're suffering along with a less-enlightened ISP whose DNS servers conduct less frequent updates, you should be seeing the entire site on the new servers now.
At any rate, the University of Michigan academic chapter of my life came to a close approximately three hours ago, as I handed in my Economics 101 final exam and left the Modern Languages Building's Auditorium #4. Don't get me wrong, I am not going to shut the 'U' out of my life entirely; it's just that I will no longer be a student there. When my father brings the family's Explorer to Ann Arbor on Friday evening, my permanent residence in Baits Housing will come to an end. Due to technicalities, I will be able to hold on to the room in a legal sense until mid-January at the earliest, but for at least the next few months, I will be calling my parents' house home.
Whatever it was that came over me and drove me down to near-suicidal depths last week has really disappeared. I think it's a combination of a number of things that has helped me; the two most prominent things, in my mind, would be relief associated with the end of school and the recent quick widening of my circle of gay friends. Finally, I've met some people outside of the context of nightclubs or the Internet, and I'm quite happy about that to say the least.
To expand on that topic a bit, I just wanted to say that after some of the things that have happened in my prior attempts at relationships, I'm going to take a step back and not actively pursue anything. I blame neither any of my ex-boyfriends nor myself for anything negative that happened, and quite honestly, I remain good friends with every single one of them. I just feel that at this stage of my life, I should "play the field," as the saying goes, and not be excessively committed to any person or thing. I will certainly entertain any offers I receive to begin relationships don't get me wrong, being in a committed relationship is the most wonderful feeling in the world but I'm not going to rush headlong into anything on my own. If something is bound to happen, I'm going to let it happen but I'm not going to chase after anything that can't or won't come to be. That will just lead to my getting hurt, and I don't need any of that.
I am so far behind in the sleep department that I am going to lay down for a mid-afternoon nap right now.