« Sat.03.10.2001 »
3:42 pm EST 43°F (6°C) in Dearborn
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A number of factors have contributed to my not having updated this section in two weeks. I've been very busy at Commuter, working nearly 120 hours in the last two weeks. I was told by a friend that it seems I fixate too much on the crap that surrounds my life, and it seems that that's about all I've done on this site recently, so I figured I should keep my mouth shut. Finally, as I originally said a few weeks ago, I'm losing my passion for keeping this up it seems as though nobody out there really, truly cares about the mundane details of my life. I'm starting to wonder if maybe I was naive and stupid a few months ago, when I more or less bared my soul to the World Wide Web. Doing that did bring me a little bit of concern and care from people, but more than anything else, I met a bunch of weirdos.
I've basically resigned myself to the fact that nobody, not even my parents, cares about me enough to help me out with the things I need. I've given up on my father co-signing for a car loan for me by the time he claims he might come through for me, I'll have a down payment ready. I've given up on finding love everywhere I go, I get turned away. However, that can't stop me from remembering the positive things I have in life I have several wonderful friends, a decent job, and (although they are constantly under threat from my mother) a roof over my head and food on the table. So, I find a way to survive, even if only by the slimmest of margins.
I'll leave the future of this journal up to you, my sometimes-loyal readers. Do you really care about the mundane details of my life, my feelings, my thoughts, and my dreams? Let me know. Would you rather I just kept this like it is now, a mere recounting of events? Tell me what you want.